HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE MY LOVE :D

I wished you last night at 12 but you daoed me D:

I hope you had a good birthday! At least we'll get to meet up soon, right? :D NEXT FRIDAY HAD BETTER HAPPEN. 

Anyway you'll always be one of my funniest and most awesome friends, and I love all the amusing chats we had past midnight last year, and how you'd help me with lit and recommend music to me and drag me out to concerts. :D I always have lots and lots of fun with you even if we don't get to see each other so often anymore and I really, really miss you! D: But either way. Keep being awesome and enjoy your sixteenhood!

1. I realized that my saying "TOO MUCH WORK TOO LITTLE TIME" really translates to a lot of Power, if you go by the whole Fs/t thing.

2. I'm not a fan of Twilight anymore, but seriously, I have this ridiculous urge to calculate the genotype/phenotype of Nessie and Jacob's offspring. Since vampirism (?) is Codominant and Lycanthropy is Sex-Linked... the dihybrid cross would be a work of beauty. Never have I felt so simultaneously nerdy and bimbotic.

3. Physics test tomorrow. RARGH.

1. DENISE'S LITTLE SISTER IS SO CUTE. :D

2. SO MUCH WORK SO LITTLE TIME.

3. SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY

4. HAPPY BIRTHDAY VOONY~~~

Sometimes, when writing, you have to imagine things, write about things that have never happened to you, things way out of your understanding. Every so often, it actually happens - and you can't write about it anymore, because you can't do it justice.

I wonder if that's how actors sometimes feel. I think Sibyl Vane mentioned something to the effect in Picture of Dorian Gray.

In other news, last night I dreamed I was in an Earthquake. It was one of those dreams where you seriously think you're awake, and I kept thinking, is this what it feels like? is this what it feels like? And when I woke up I thought it was one of the worse things I'd ever felt, and I had been asleep.

I don't really know what to say at this point.

1. I like Frank Sinatra's music. Love's Been Good to Me sounds like a lullaby, I think it's beautiful. It was playing in my head all this morning, I love the quiet nostalgia of it. I like My Way too, of course, and Summer Wind. This is going to sound weird, but these songs remind me of my childhood.

2. I really miss you. ): Email me already!

3. There isn't much to say, really. But I do so miss you.

New icons for a new year. Huzzah.

I have a feeling I'll be using this one a lot.

I suppose I ought to write the mandatory "yay 2010!" post. Well I spent the last day of 2009 doing Trig, and basically reminding myself how much i hate Math. Which is, I guess, pretty indicative of how I spent 2009.

At the end of the year people are always going on about how fast the year passed, but when I think about 2009, it seems so deathly long. I can barely remember what it was like at the end of 2008, and so many things happened last year that I can barely believe it happened so recently.

2009 was not a good year for me. But it was certainly valuable - and definitely necessary. I think I learned a lot, and grew a lot, and I made mistakes I know now not to repeat. 

So my resolutions for 2010 are going to be simple, but probably hideously difficult to keep - sleep early, read more, don't fall sick (so much), don't procrastinate (much). :D

Here's to surviving Secondary Four! :)

Hello everyone! Are you having a good holiday? I'm having an awesome holiday! *beam* But I'm in the airport at San Francisco, waiting for my flight (which has been delayed) home. I don't want to go home! D: That said, I really, really, really need to work on my SMP, I have the feeling my groupmates are ready to murder me in cold blood (shrinks away from Claire and Yi Wye). Also, there's all that crap about studying for next year (damn Physics test), and restocking on stuff for school. And catching up on Secretarial work for Angklung.

But enough of that. :) This trip to America has been really, really fun. I got to see my sister, talk to my best friend on the phone (!!!) and hang out with my beyond awesome God Family and family friends, not to mention my sister's boyfriend, haha. Man, I wish I could hang out with them more. They're like the cousins I never had <3 But it has been great, the running around theme parks and eating at fast food joints and talking way into the night. :D

One thing about America I absolutely cannot stand, though: the gum. It's freaking EVERYWHERE. And its really really gross. Eew.

On another note, thanks to all the lovely people who sms-ed me to wish me merry Christmas! :D Sorry I couldn't reply. Hopefully you'll see this, I love you all! <3

School is going to start again and life is going to suck. D: But I'm glad I have you all~

1. I am in San Francisco now! :D

2. JOHN GREEN. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

3. helping x_forgetromeo promote!



In the vain hope that someone on my f-page will go and be awesome? :D

Well guys, I'm in California, Berkeley! And it is freaking cold. To me, at least. *shivers* It's strange suddenly having to bother what the weather is going to be like, when in Singapore the worst that can happen is a flood (run for high ground!), heavy rain (bring an umbrella) or really hot weather (don't go out at all).

Anyway, I'm staying with my dearest sister and her room mate. :) The rest of my family is staying at a hotel nearby, which probably has nicer facilities but doesn't have my sister. *hugs* Anyway so last night, in an attempt to sleep a little later to put of jet lag, I watched the latest episode of House (go Wilson! go RSL!) and episodes 7 and 8 of Merlin :D And I woke up at 7:30 this morning realizing I had fallen on my bed last night without brushing my teeth. Just as well, since my toothpaste had leaked out and covered half the ziplock back in gooey green stuff. Had to spend half an hour this morning getting all the muck out. Either way, this is the first time I've been the first to wake up in a house, not to mention the first time I woke up at 7:30 without an alarm clock.

O CRAP. Realised I forgot to charge my camera. CRAP.

I wonder if the rest of my family is awake. Perhaps I should go back to bed. :)

1. Went out with hecatedarkmagic today, was lots and lots of fun! Though we ended up talking loads more than actually shopping. Managed to pick out my Mom's birthday gift (a whole month late), and she bought some books (against her mom's wishes, tsk ^^) :D Lent her my Hunger Games and Catching Fire as well, yay for more people to fangirl with!

2. Kimmy came over yesterday and we watched The History Boys~ As she so put it, "I can't believe we're meeting up to watch an NC16 movie." Well it was a lot more innocent than that. Then we watched four episodes of Blackadder Season 3, yay for Byron and Shelley's guest appearance :D

3. I GET TO SEE MY SISTER SOON~~~~~ Will be in the States (California and Arizona) from 10th to 27th December :D I feel like bringing a whole suitcase just for books :D Unfortunately it'll be really really cold. Goodbye warm tropical weather. ):

4. SMP is so dead I could hold a funeral for it and mourn it's sad demise. Life sucks.

5. 51 one pages into my NaNo novel and it isn't going the way I hoped. D: But nevertheless, I shall press on! i'm getting somewhere, I swear.

I am losing a ridiculous amount of blood, I have cramps, muscle-aches, and my Chem is fail. Life sucks.

On the bright side, I managed to watch Ignorance is Bliss. :D I love Chase. And House. Oh yes, all from the last episode is forgiven. Because HE SAID THE L WORD HE SAID THE L WORD~~~~~

This song is WIN. :D Yay Nerdfighters!

Have no idea if I'm going to watch New Moon or not~ Movie tickets are getting really, really expensive.

Anyway I find it so amusing that some people who commented didn't get that this song was insulting Twilight. lol. *is cheerfully Anti-Edward*

Yay 311 :) I don't care what they say, I still love you guys. And apparently I'm a secret genius now. Damn, how did my cover get blown.

(oh, and certain people out there who are reading this, it was meant as a joke. a class thing. so if you're going, how can a person who confuses 1D with 2D when she is in terrible pain ever be a genius, you can stop. i'm not intruding into your territory.)

So 311~ I've probably not been as participative as I could have been this year because of my health and various... other issues, but you have no idea how much easier you've made school life for me, probably without realising it. Just by giving me something to look forward to when I get up in the morning, knowing you'll be coming up with ridiculous antics or strange quotes for voon to write down. So let's make next year a good one. :)

On another note, I read a bit more of Catching Fire. I've just been re-reading and re-reading the book, partially because I can't bear to get to the end. But I so love this series! :D Hunger Games ftw. Can't wait for hecatedarkmagic (or shiny_skylights , if she's interested, hint hint) to read this, so I can have fangirl buddies. :D

Anyway, spent most of today with a horrible stomach ache and sore throat and the stomach ache is (momentarily) gone for the first time since I woke up, but my lungs feel horrible. Urgh. On the bright side, I got pretty nice comments for my report book, though I'm not sure about the truth of some of them. And I had lunch with Jing Hui and we talked for four hours at Shaw, about everything from school admin to Singaporean politics to Malaysian politics to family to books to cca to bitching about ri guys (alright, she did the majority of the bitching ^^). It was fun. :D

So today wasn't a bad day. Except I was re-confronted with the fact that a certain form teacher of mine might be reading this.

Brother: You know, Mr. Ngah told us, "this is an examination! If I catch you talking I'll kick you in the dingle-dangles!" :O

Brother: Mr. Goh said I did very well in my written paper and Oral exam! *beams*
Mom: Wow! Really? :D
Brother: Actually, he just said I did well.
Mom: ...

Brother: *plays with yoyo instead of studying*
Mom: I AM GOING TO SNIP SOMETHING OFF.
Esther: *begins to snicker*

Brother: Mom! Aren't you going to eat  your kit-kat?
Mom: No, do you want it?
Brother: Nah, it's too sweet, it'll make me fat.
Esther: Riiight.
Brother: ...and I already had four chocolate bars.

1. Happy birthday glissarine ! *throws confetti* Hope you're alive and okay in RJ! :)
 
2. Physics RA was bleurgh. D: Lit was bad (though marks-wise it was average), SS was okay (considering I didn't finish), and I AM HAPPY WITH ENGLISH DO NOT RAIN ON MY PARADE.

3. The seniors (well some of them, at least) came back for prac today. Which was weird, for some reason, but kind of nice, especially since we finally had a bass section that consisted of more than five people. Anyway the first hour of prac was "creative compo" which = waste of time (sry but it is true!), but we actually made some progress during the second half, thank goodness. Maybe Arts Fest won't be so royally screwed after all. :)

4. Found a way to watch House Season 6. :D GO HOUSE/CUDDY!!!

My piano teacher just bought me the scores for Les Miserables. OMG, I have NEVER been so excited to receive piano scores :D Must try them out soon!

"I must hold in balance the sense of the futility of effort and the sense of the necessity to struggle; the conviction of the inevitability of failure and still the determination to "succeed" — and, more than these, the contradiction between the dead hand of the past and the high intentions of the future." - F. Scott Fitzgerald

1. I finished House Season Five!! :D Now thirsting for Season Six, yey. OMG CHASE/CAM WEDDING! <3 And House and Cuddy should so totally get together hello they are so totally in love stop dancing around each other GO GET MARRIED OR SOMETHING.

2. Today I stayed in to relax and sleep off the exam suck, and I feel better yay. Also went bookshopping yesterday with my mom (bought Catch 22, Brave New  World + Brave New World Revisted, Inferno, Vita Nuova and Daisy Miller), and finally finished Chapter Three of the fic I'm co-writing (thank you kimberly dear) with Ao Fei. Must start on plotting my NaNoWriMo for the year.

3. I want to watch Fame. *pout*

4. I also cut my hair. Like two inches off. Its a lot less thick as well, thank god. The hairdresser blew it straight, so it feels kind of weird, but it'll get curly soon enough again, yay :)

5. Apparently my sister is not coming back this year. WTH SARA LIM EXPLAIN YOURSELF.

I've been trying to convince various individuals (i.e. my family) to buy me jewelry. More specifically, steampunk jewelry. That's jewelry made of gears and watch parts and cool little metal parts and all that. Yes people, I think I might just have discovered my girly side. Too bad that my girly side also reveals my nerdy/tomboy side.

Is it my fault? Jewelry made of watchparts just makes me ridiculously excited!! 8D

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I am still rather sour about having to go back to school for RA tests. Does this make me a bad RA student? After all, we are supposed to live, breathe and sleep the subject, yes? Let me attempt to be positive about this.

I am so happy we have to take extra exams! Even though the rest of the school would not be studying anymore, and have holidays due to the marking days, that's alright! Because Biology and Physics are my life! I would gladly give up relaxing/sleeping time to study them! Come to think of it, studying Biology and Physics are my form of relaxation! They just make me so happy! Taking the exams would be so fun! I am so grateful for this opportunity to test my knowledge of Biology and Physics! Also, this would help me to hone my exam taking skills! Wow! How utterly thoughtful of the school! I hope they make the RA tests as challenging as possible, so as to test our abilities and help us to match up to our RI counterparts! RA tests are fun! Sucks not to be in an RA!

Okay, that kind of failed, didn't it.

This is to all the people who think I shouldn't do Med because I should "follow my heart" and do lit:

Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)

Walt Whitman, "Song of Myself"
US poet (1819 - 1892)

Here is a translation:

I WILL DO WHAT I  WANT TO DO, THANK YOU. Do not claim to know where my heart is leading me when you clearly know nothing about my heart. I love Literature, but I am very, VERY certain I want to be a Doctor, at this point of time at least. So please. Give it up.

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Dear Mr. Keats,

Love you as I do, please do not come out (again) for our End of the Year. I will kill myself over trying to explain your awesomeness.

all my love,
Esther.

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I realise that somewhere during the three years I've been in RGS, I've turned into one of those scary over-achievers I've always been afraid of in primary school. Well obviously i do not meet the over-achieving level of uhm, certain people, but it's still... frightening, how much I've changed.