Yay 311 :) I don't care what they say, I still love you guys. And apparently I'm a secret genius now. Damn, how did my cover get blown.

(oh, and certain people out there who are reading this, it was meant as a joke. a class thing. so if you're going, how can a person who confuses 1D with 2D when she is in terrible pain ever be a genius, you can stop. i'm not intruding into your territory.)

So 311~ I've probably not been as participative as I could have been this year because of my health and various... other issues, but you have no idea how much easier you've made school life for me, probably without realising it. Just by giving me something to look forward to when I get up in the morning, knowing you'll be coming up with ridiculous antics or strange quotes for voon to write down. So let's make next year a good one. :)

On another note, I read a bit more of Catching Fire. I've just been re-reading and re-reading the book, partially because I can't bear to get to the end. But I so love this series! :D Hunger Games ftw. Can't wait for hecatedarkmagic (or shiny_skylights , if she's interested, hint hint) to read this, so I can have fangirl buddies. :D

Anyway, spent most of today with a horrible stomach ache and sore throat and the stomach ache is (momentarily) gone for the first time since I woke up, but my lungs feel horrible. Urgh. On the bright side, I got pretty nice comments for my report book, though I'm not sure about the truth of some of them. And I had lunch with Jing Hui and we talked for four hours at Shaw, about everything from school admin to Singaporean politics to Malaysian politics to family to books to cca to bitching about ri guys (alright, she did the majority of the bitching ^^). It was fun. :D

So today wasn't a bad day. Except I was re-confronted with the fact that a certain form teacher of mine might be reading this.

Brother: You know, Mr. Ngah told us, "this is an examination! If I catch you talking I'll kick you in the dingle-dangles!" :O

Brother: Mr. Goh said I did very well in my written paper and Oral exam! *beams*
Mom: Wow! Really? :D
Brother: Actually, he just said I did well.
Mom: ...

Brother: *plays with yoyo instead of studying*
Mom: I AM GOING TO SNIP SOMETHING OFF.
Esther: *begins to snicker*

Brother: Mom! Aren't you going to eat  your kit-kat?
Mom: No, do you want it?
Brother: Nah, it's too sweet, it'll make me fat.
Esther: Riiight.
Brother: ...and I already had four chocolate bars.

1. Happy birthday glissarine ! *throws confetti* Hope you're alive and okay in RJ! :)
 
2. Physics RA was bleurgh. D: Lit was bad (though marks-wise it was average), SS was okay (considering I didn't finish), and I AM HAPPY WITH ENGLISH DO NOT RAIN ON MY PARADE.

3. The seniors (well some of them, at least) came back for prac today. Which was weird, for some reason, but kind of nice, especially since we finally had a bass section that consisted of more than five people. Anyway the first hour of prac was "creative compo" which = waste of time (sry but it is true!), but we actually made some progress during the second half, thank goodness. Maybe Arts Fest won't be so royally screwed after all. :)

4. Found a way to watch House Season 6. :D GO HOUSE/CUDDY!!!

My piano teacher just bought me the scores for Les Miserables. OMG, I have NEVER been so excited to receive piano scores :D Must try them out soon!

"I must hold in balance the sense of the futility of effort and the sense of the necessity to struggle; the conviction of the inevitability of failure and still the determination to "succeed" — and, more than these, the contradiction between the dead hand of the past and the high intentions of the future." - F. Scott Fitzgerald

1. I finished House Season Five!! :D Now thirsting for Season Six, yey. OMG CHASE/CAM WEDDING! <3 And House and Cuddy should so totally get together hello they are so totally in love stop dancing around each other GO GET MARRIED OR SOMETHING.

2. Today I stayed in to relax and sleep off the exam suck, and I feel better yay. Also went bookshopping yesterday with my mom (bought Catch 22, Brave New  World + Brave New World Revisted, Inferno, Vita Nuova and Daisy Miller), and finally finished Chapter Three of the fic I'm co-writing (thank you kimberly dear) with Ao Fei. Must start on plotting my NaNoWriMo for the year.

3. I want to watch Fame. *pout*

4. I also cut my hair. Like two inches off. Its a lot less thick as well, thank god. The hairdresser blew it straight, so it feels kind of weird, but it'll get curly soon enough again, yay :)

5. Apparently my sister is not coming back this year. WTH SARA LIM EXPLAIN YOURSELF.

I've been trying to convince various individuals (i.e. my family) to buy me jewelry. More specifically, steampunk jewelry. That's jewelry made of gears and watch parts and cool little metal parts and all that. Yes people, I think I might just have discovered my girly side. Too bad that my girly side also reveals my nerdy/tomboy side.

Is it my fault? Jewelry made of watchparts just makes me ridiculously excited!! 8D

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I am still rather sour about having to go back to school for RA tests. Does this make me a bad RA student? After all, we are supposed to live, breathe and sleep the subject, yes? Let me attempt to be positive about this.

I am so happy we have to take extra exams! Even though the rest of the school would not be studying anymore, and have holidays due to the marking days, that's alright! Because Biology and Physics are my life! I would gladly give up relaxing/sleeping time to study them! Come to think of it, studying Biology and Physics are my form of relaxation! They just make me so happy! Taking the exams would be so fun! I am so grateful for this opportunity to test my knowledge of Biology and Physics! Also, this would help me to hone my exam taking skills! Wow! How utterly thoughtful of the school! I hope they make the RA tests as challenging as possible, so as to test our abilities and help us to match up to our RI counterparts! RA tests are fun! Sucks not to be in an RA!

Okay, that kind of failed, didn't it.

Last night I dreamt I was supposed to go somewhere I hadn't gone since I graduated from Primary school, to meet someone I hadn't met in ages. And I, being me, was a nervous wreck. My mom was walking with me there, and it all looked exactly the same as I remembered. Then suddenly, she steered me off and brought me into the opposite direction, as if it was the most obvious thing to do. She brought me to this completely foreign place I'd never seen in my life, and 311 was there.

It was quite amusing. We all sat together and around in a square we formed with our tables and did our homework, though obviously very little work was done because most of us were fooling around.

I've been trying to remember my dreams for the past two weeks or so but this has been the only one that stuck with me.

I remember being so reluctant to join three eleven at first, when I knew so few people there. But now I really love it. I know people think we're boring/scary/studious/nerd/whatever but I do so like it here. :D I wouldn't pick any other class to have spent my Secondary Three year with.

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This song has been stuck in my head for ages. :) Best Mortal Instruments fanvideo I've seen so far. And it's a nice song, and I love her voice. On that note, anyone want to recommend Natalie Merchant songs? Or any music at all, really. Need more mugging music! :D

This is to all the people who think I shouldn't do Med because I should "follow my heart" and do lit:

Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)

Walt Whitman, "Song of Myself"
US poet (1819 - 1892)

Here is a translation:

I WILL DO WHAT I  WANT TO DO, THANK YOU. Do not claim to know where my heart is leading me when you clearly know nothing about my heart. I love Literature, but I am very, VERY certain I want to be a Doctor, at this point of time at least. So please. Give it up.

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Dear Mr. Keats,

Love you as I do, please do not come out (again) for our End of the Year. I will kill myself over trying to explain your awesomeness.

all my love,
Esther.

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I realise that somewhere during the three years I've been in RGS, I've turned into one of those scary over-achievers I've always been afraid of in primary school. Well obviously i do not meet the over-achieving level of uhm, certain people, but it's still... frightening, how much I've changed.

1. I am pleased. :D

2. Why am I still so sleepy?!

3. Need to practice scales. Why does time pass so fast during the holidays? It's already almost mid-week. Gah. The only reason why i'm looking forward to school re-starting, is because it brings us closer to the end.

( 4. The Mortal Instruments!!!  )

5. Spent a bit of time fooling around with my brother's ukulele (yes, ACSJ kids apparently get lessons). it's actually pretty easy to play. the chords are smaller than guitar and it's easier to sustain the chords and get a clean sound. :D I quite like it!

September holidays! Finished City of Bones and City of Ashes, going to spend as much time possible on City of Glass. Am quite inspired to read Paradise Lost and Inferno, which I've been wanting to read for ages but have been too scared to pick up.

Me: [out of the blue] JACE! <3
Brother: Nuuu! Stop! The fangirliness, it's too much for me!

On another note, sorry if I haven't replied to comments/commented on posts. >< These few days have been crazy busy. D:

I have just finished The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society by Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows.

IT IS AN AWESOME BOOK. It's set post World War II, and - well, I can't really say more and do it justice, but please, READ IT. It's one of those books that make you laugh insanely and cry at the same time. The characters are all so funny and real and engaging, and the prose is hilarious, yet poignant where it should be. I - I just - AAAH. It's beautiful. Lively and easy to read and addictive. It's witty, guest stars Oscar Wilde, has some small mention of Victor Hugo, and the heroine is an eccentric writer whom is completely and totally lovable. AND do not get me STARTED on Christian Hellman or Dawsey Adams.

So, GO READ IT. It's a library book, so YES, GO CHECK IT OUT. And fangirl with me.

In other news, I have The Mortal Instruments now! Must start on them soon. :)

Next Week: SS PT/English Oral, Chem SPA, Physics SPA
Following Week: Physics RA test, half of Lit PT, Trigonometry Quiz
Three Weeks from now: Sept Holidays (holidays? what holidays?)
Four weeks from now: PIANO EXAM ARRGHHHH
And beyond: END OF THE YEAR ASSESSMENTS

kill me kill me kill me nowww.

the shit is set to hit the fan. i love that saying.

Only four minutes left, but today is William and Catherine Blake's Wedding Anniversary. :)

This morning I realised I completely forgot the structure of cellulose.

Say it. I'm DOOOMEDDDD. 

Well, the good thing about these stressful times is that it does wonderful things for my writing. :D For those who know what my current pet project is on (I think there's only one of you), it should be obvious why.

You are not worth it.

I finally, FINALLY have my internet back, good and proper. It's been acting up for days, bloody irritating. ): But it's fixed, so all is well! And we're getting a new TV, to replace our 11 year old spoilt one, as well as a new oven, which is similarly old and similarly spoilt. And we got a sandwich maker too. :) Thank god for upgrades.

Watched half of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone on TV yesterday. Ah, good times. It was fun reliving my childhood! Not to mention that's the only movie where my OTP shares screentime (even if their conversation lasts all of two lines), which is a nice bonus. :D

Love Little Red Cap by Carol Ann Duffy. Am so going to post it on my sixteenth birthday. :)

The important thing is this: to be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become." - Charles Du Bos

What will you sacrifice?

On an entirely different note, Lit today was totally awesome. like totally LITERATURE ORGASM awesome. Aahh~ And I think I'm developing an unhealthy fondness for Frankenstein's Monster. Who desperately needs a name, by the way. Someone remind me he isn't real?

I think the main difference between a friend and a family member is that friends actually choose to be with you. You love family in an entirely different way than you love friends. For some reason, sometimes the reason why you love your friends is somehow, more rational, in a sense, than why you love your family. Not to undermine familial love, of course. There is a lot of strength in that "he/she's family! i have to love him/her!" kind of relationship. But friends mean a lot to us because, well, they really could leave us anytime but mostly they don't.

When do you start considering a friend a friend? When do you make that leap from 'acquaintence' to 'friend', or 'friend' to 'close friend'? I doubt its the length of time you know each other, because sometimes you just feel comfortable with a person. Does that qualify that person as a friend? When are you absolutely certain you can let someone mean something to you and know that you mean something to that person as well, that person will miss you when you're gone, etc etc etc? It's like a feeling when you're talking to someone and you think, oh hey, I could do this for a long time. Is that enough?

edit: i have a funny feeling people are going to comment to this post with something like 'esther, you think too much. =_="